I’m sure this isn’t the first or last time you’ll ever hear this, but everything changes when you have a baby.
Before Bubba was born, I was worried about my life changing and having no sense of “me” anymore. I was worried that I’d lose some friends who didn’t understand what it was like to have a baby, I was worried I’d be left out when it came to some things, and I was worried about having time for just Z and me.
Well, I can tell you all of the above have been affected, but it’s not a bad thing.
My priorities were very different pre-baby (PB); I spent money like it grew on trees, I drank as much as the boys, and I never wanted to stay in on a Friday or Saturday night.
Now, I have to watch what I spend because I know I have to buy diapers. I don’t drink often and if I do have a drink or two, I have to make sure there’s enough time between the time I nurse Bubba. And I’d rather stay in and hangout with my boys than do anything else in the entire world.
Most people are supportive and understand this; especially those with kids. There are a select few, however, that have told me my life is over, I’m boring, they don’t want to hang out with us, or that it sucks to be me.
Well, I hate to break it to those people but for me, there is no better joy than having a baby. Cuddling, kissing, and playing with my son has given me greater joy than anything else has in my entire life.
Although it came a little earlier than I would have planned, I am so so happy that it did. It came at a time in my life when I needed him, and I didn’t even know it. God knew it, and God gave me the greatest gift I could have ever received.
So to those of you who tell me I have no life and think I’m boring because I’d rather stay in and spend quality time with my family, I pray for you. I pray that you one day get to experience this kind of love and happiness, because there’s nothing like it in the world.
I may have traded dance clubs, bar hopping and jet setting for play dates, playgrounds, and Disney World but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I went to college, I lived the single life, and I had the time to get everything out of my system. I’m happier now than I’ve ever been before. I’m not knocking anyone that lives this type of lifestyle; hell I had a blast living it. But this is my life now, this is my happiness, and this is where my heart is.
I respect those that live differently than me and just want the same in return. Is that too much to ask?