Because sometimes you’re an asshole and you have to own it.
|“I’m human; I’m not perfect, and I make mistakes. But I’m not afraid to admit when I’m wrong and when I feel an apology is necessary.”|
I had a really terrible week last week and I had a lot of time to think and process it all over the weekend. And when all of said thinking was done, I realized that I needed to address my post last week and how it may have come off…well…bitchy.
I was emailing back and forth with a few readers who made me realize that yes, it’s horrible that my husband may be deploying but it’s part of the job and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it. I’m sad, yes. But I’m typically not a negative person and I don’t want to start now.
I also realized that my comment about it be annoying when people complain about their spouse being gone for a week or so on business trips was offensive. And I’m here to apologize because yes, I shouldn’t have said it like that. Being separated from a loved one for any amount of time just plain sucks. And while the thought of Zach deploying scares the crap out of me, it doesn’t give me the right to bash other people who may have a hard time when their loved ones leave.
So for that, I am truly sorry. I’m not a bitch, I’m not heartless, and I certainly don’t want it to come off that way. I was having a bad day and let my emotions get the best of me. I’m not perfect, but I have no problem admitting when I’m wrong. So for those of you who helped me see that I was wrong (you know who you are), thank you.
To anyone that I offended or for anyone else who thought “this girl is a bitch”, I sincerely apologize. That was never my intention and I feel terrible that my emotions took over the blog that day. Maybe a filter is necessary? Mental note…
But in all seriousness, I care how other people feel and to hear that I offended some of my readers really upset me. People process things differently and for me, it’s easier to be angry than sad. But no one likes a Negative Nancy and I don’t want this place to become some deep, dark, and angry space.
Over the years, we truly have been blessed; we have each other, two beautiful children and wonderful things, all because of the army. Sure, we can play the “what if” game and look at our life had he not enlisted. But it is what is is; this is our life and we have what we have because of it.
But thanks for keeping me grounded, friends. I know that you all have my best interest at heart and hopefully, most of you understand that if I came off as an asshole, I didn’t mean for it to be that way. And in case you don’t know me that well and I offended you, I’m truly sorry. I didn’t think before I hit that little orange “publish” button and I really should have. This should be a space for empowering, supporting, and lifting each other up, not tearing one another down. And without even realizing it, I turned this space into the latter that day.
Here’s to starting fresh.
Taking deep breaths.
Dealing with each day as it comes.
Putting on my big girl pants.
And to not being an asshole again.
“Grab a glass of wine, lace up your running shoes and stop by for a visit!”