The past few months have held a lot of uncertainties. We’ve waited patiently for things to be signed, papers to go through, dates to be told.
The kids and I moved back to Ohio and we lived apart from my husband for three months.
The kids started school, soccer, and gymnastics without their Dad there to see it.
We did our bedtime routine and read stories over FaceTime.
We knew there was an end in sight but we just didn’t know when that would be.
I struggled to make the new house feel like a home.
And while Cleveland is home, it certainly didn’t feel like it right away. For the past 7 years, it’s just been somewhere we’ve vacationed for a few days or weeks at a time.
But when my husband came home last week, it was for good.
No more dangerous missions.
No more trainings for weeks or months at a time.
No more not knowing when we would get a phone call or IF we would get a phone call.
Military life wasn’t all bad. It took me a few years to understand what I had signed up for and how to handle it all. It also took a few years for me to mature as a person and as a military wife. To learn to bite my tongue and swallow my pride when I needed to. Which wasn’t easy but sometimes, I just had to do it.
Just like all people grow and mature over the years, so did I. I just documented all of it and left it all on the table for the world to see. I’m not proud of some of the things I said and did but if anything, it was real. Those were the emotions I felt; the pain, the fear, the excitement. One of the perks? I can look back and literally see how much I’ve grown, matured, and changed… for the better.
The worst part of all of this? My husband LOVED what he did. And I just wish it didn’t have to end this way. But it’s a blessing in disguise and I know we will be just fine in the civilian world. It’s going to be a bit of a culture shock for everyone.
Will I miss moving around and going on new adventures?
Will I make friends as fast in the civilian world and I did in the military world? Where we were almost forced to make friends quickly because we were all in the same boat?
Who knows! The past 7 years have held so much unknown and now that that chapter of our lives is behind us, it’s time for a new kind of unknown.
Cheers to new chapters and new beginnings…The rest is still unwritten 🙂