Monday, October 20, 2014

Make your own cupcakes and rainbows.

Hello Monday, we meet again. And at one time I hated Mondays, I now like them because it means another week closer to seeing my love. We're a little over two months into this deployment and each day has it's challenges. Sometimes it's the kids. Sometimes it's work. Sometimes it's the house. But at the end of the day when the kids are sound asleep and I crawl into bed, I know that I did the best job I could do and it's another day down. And that it's one day closer to getting Z home.

We had a super busy weekend but I don't think I've heard Nolan laugh as much as he did in quite awhile.I will be the first to admit, I sometimes forget he's only 2.5. He's so super smart that sometimes I forget all he wants is the simple things. Staying up late and hanging out with me after Paislee's gone to bed. Swinging for an hour straight while I let him pretend to kick me over. Being pulled in the wagon round and round on the "roller coaster". And despite my exhaustion, I try and do all of these things with a smile on my face. And it's hard not to smile when I see how happy it makes him.

This weekend consisted of gym class, Starbucks, and playground adventures. We went shopping, ordered pizza, and enjoyed the beautiful weather. Hell Nolan slept for 13 hours one night and I don't think that's happened... ever. I would say it was a successful few days :)

Spreading my attention between two very needy kids on my own is hard. I try and give each of them their alone time but it seems as though someone always needs me when the other one does. Besides nursing, I don't sit down much during the day. Trust me, I am not complaining, just simply stating the facts. I love that I am able to stay at home with my babies but I would love someone to try and tell me all I do during the day is watch soaps and eat bon-bons. The only thing I'm watching is Disney Junior and the only thing I'm eating are the scraps of my kids' leftover lunch because I didn't have time to make my own. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. Ever.

Things have been going a lot smoother since I cut back at work and took on a different role. My kids seem happier, I am obviously less stressed and soon enough, I'll be back in Ohio and spending the holidays with family. I'm of course missing Z like crazy but I'm so thankful for technology and the fact that I get to talk to him as much as I do. In terms of deployment, I couldn't ask for better circumstances. This too shall pass, right?


I know life isn't all cupcakes and rainbows, but rather doing the best we can with what we have. Taking each day as it comes and embracing the good with the bad. Remembering that the small things are what really matter and most importantly, that everything will work itself out. Karma, God, whatever you believe in... it knows what it's doing. 

And sometimes, it's necessary to make your own cupcakes and rainbows. 


Friday, October 17, 2014

I missed Brad Pitt and Shia Labeouf.

Well guys, I had all intentions of showing up today with something enlightening. But yesterday was gorgeous out and well, swinging in the backyard trumped writing a blog post. But I think Nolan laughed for an entire hour straight so I would say that's a win, right? 

But before enjoying the weather outside, my friend and I hit up the mall in hopes of finding the perfect blanket scarf I've been searching for. And boy did Express deliver! Along with a new pair of sunnies and earrings because well, I had to spend a certain amount to use my coupon and these were a must. Don't you agree? 

And while I was away, I apparently missed Brad Pitt and Shia Labeouf on post for a screening of their new WWII movie "Fury". I've never seen so many pictures of people taking selfies. I mean, obviously Brad Pitt would have seen me and fallen in love with me and that would have meant ruining two families so all in all, it's a good thing I didn't go.  (Sarcasm... I think...). 

But we have two birthday parties this weekend and only a few weeks until we're back in CLE so I would say it's looking good. OH... and if you can say an extra prayer for our family, I would really appreciate it. We're waiting on some news and I'm praying, and hoping, and wishing, and crossing all fingers and toes it's good news. I'll let you know as soon as I can ;) 

Thanks friends... have a great weekend!! XOXO


Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Sleep is for the birds.


They say we need 8 hours of sleep a night to function. Or to be healthy. Or something like that. 

Well health experts, I'm here to tell you I live off 3-5 hours a night and I'm still alive. Well, I guess I'm breathing so that counts as alive, right? 

We had Paislee's 9 month check up yesterday and her doctor told me she doesn't need to be eating at night anymore. So the 2-4 times she wakes up? Yep, she just wants to see my beautiful face, snuggle me, or use me for my milk. The doctor's solution? Let her cry herself back to sleep or have her find some other way to get herself back to sleep....

But either way I lose because I stay awake due to her crying, and if I feed her, she'll never break the cycle. If I wasn't so tired, I would think of a logical way to work through this but I'm lucky to be functioning after last night's middle of the night party so we will cross that bridge another day. 

And then there's the dog. Anyone else's dog think they're human and sleep right up next to you in bed? Well my dog sleeps at my feet because my two-almost-three-year-old-man-child is sleeping right up next to my head. I asked him last night if he wanted to sleep in his bed and he said "no mom, I'm sleeping in your bed." So I asked if I could sleep in his bed (I totally would if it meant sleeping by myself for once) and his response? "No mom, it's my bed".. WELL THEN SLEEP IN IT BRO!!

He also woke up every few hours with a belly ache and lucky for me, seemed to be every other hour that his sister decided to wake up. Tons of fun over here people, tons of fun. 

So luckily, I'm meeting Amber for COFFEE and a playdate this morning. They say to watch your caffeine intake while breastfeeding but seriously, I would not function without it. Or I would be one mean, mean mama and we wouldn't want that, would we?!

But hey, we're all healthy and happy and I guess that's all that matters. I can sleep when I'm dead. Or when I'm home next month and I'm staying with my parents who will gladly take these gremlins while I catch a few zzzz's. I'm doing a happy dance just thinking about it! 

Oh and my Venti Caramel Macchiato that Amber is meeting me with. And seeing her. Those make me happy too...


Have a great hump day, friends!