My mind is full of crazy thoughts at all times. Seriously, my brain is like the Energizer Bunny and never stops running day and night. And I'm not kidding about the night; I'm usually up from 2-4 am because once I wake up, I just can't fall back asleep.
I spent most of the night awake last night, despite the fact that Paislee slept through the night for the first time since she was 4 months old. There's so much going on inside this little head of mine and I don't even know how to start sorting through it.
I miss my husband.
I'm stressed about the holidays and travel plans.
I'm trying to find work/life balance.
I have way too many clothes.
I have nothing to wear.
How do you fix a weed eater?
I think my eyes are getting worse...
Why can't I sleep at night?
How do I wean this child?
Why won't Nolan listen?
Why does Nolan tackle his sister every minute of the day?
Why won't my dog come downstairs?
Why do my neighbors leave their dog outside 24/7?
Should I report it?
Will I ever have a career?
Why does Groopdealz have the best deals and suck me in every time?
Should we move when Z gets home?
What will happen after the Army?
Are my kids happy?
Am I doing the best job I can?
Why can't I stop buying them clothes?
How is there so much dog hair when I just vacuumed?
Will this stress ever go away?
And so much more friends. I feel like a basket case right now and I think the best thing I can do is sit down, write everything out, and make a plan. I tend to take on too much and spread myself too thin. I focus and harp on things that need to be forgotten and I need to start taking things one at a time, day by day. I wish I could say I have it all together but I most certainly don't. I have my good days and I have my bad days. I'm so thankful for the life and opportunities I've been given and I know in the grand scheme of things, these little things don't matter.
This weekend is going to be dedicated towards organizing my thoughts and life. Cleaning, purging, sorting, etc. We have a busy weekend planned but I'm going to find time for myself. Maybe a bubble bath, pedicure, good book, who knows. But I need to shake this stress and list making and organization is the best way I know how.
How you combat stress? Anxiety? Tips?!
Cheers to the weekend friends... have a good one :) xo